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+ This post exists to announce that I am officially done with my university year and thus the next few months will be ones of glorious splendiferous freedom. You care about this.

+ I also have a pile of fandom projects about as high as the Eiffel tower, so. THINGS WILL OCCUR. Thinking of doing a rec post too maybe because what else am I good for.

+ Speaking of which, I still have a few fanmix requests left to fulfil. Apologies for lateness. An exam happened. (It went fine.) Also, apparently Mediafire has deceased or is deceasing (?) which means I'll have to reupload a number of files, le sigh~. Bear with, bear with.

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eowyn_315 has ordered me to complete an Elena G./blood OTP picspam that is currently consuming my life, thus vampire crack thoughts this week are on the light side. In brevity:

I thought the episode was fantastical and last week is all forgiven. *pets le show*
ELENA GILBERT EXISTS. Thank jeebus Show let her kill someone. There were many things to like about that development, one of which is that despite it ostensibly being about protecting Jeremy and about self-defence, the act itself was also largely driven by sheer rage. "You're the biggest monster he'll ever meet." GAH. And Y E S to the kill not even being driven by bloodlust -- because Elena's self-control is actually unreal. The irony of "I lost control" is that she was in control every second. She didn't lose control of her actions; she lost control of her emotions. ~~(LOL, sounds like someone else we know, am I right or am I right.)~~ And because we all have to cling to ways of not dealing, she attempts to explain it as "losing herself", as though it wasn't all her the entire time. Stunning, tbh.
You know what isn't stunning? Another dead PoC. What's new in life. Especially a shame and a waste because Connor became really interesting to me this episode re: his longing for "all this to mean something". And then it didn't. :|
Okay, real talk. Startin' to get real tired of fandom's deal about Elena's depression. Peasants, I can smell the ableism from ten miles away. I mean - WHAT A CHORE to have to watch someone be clinically depressed and suicidal for three seasons, right. What a fucking chore. BOOTSTRAPS, am I right. Fucking bootstraps. Check yourself before I cut you. (I will cut you.)
Surprisingly, not hating on either Salvatore this week? The show was back to being self-aware and portraying Stefan in all his disgusting glory, ergo I enjoyed him immensely. Which isn't to say that I find him especially likeable or sympathetic, but fascinating nonetheless. And I'm gonna give Damon a temporary pass because, well, there really wasn't any opportunity to let Elena in on the cure nonsense during the episode. If he continues to keep it from Elena (... despite having no real investment in the mission himself), I'll beat him with a crowbar.
On that note, I hate myself for loving that final Salvabros scene. "I'm doing it for you", UGH VOMITTTTTTT. I JUST CAN'T QUIT U FOOLS. X( Also, Stefan walking around in that singlet thing made the scene very gay porno-ish (what's new in life).
Bonnie/Shane. I'm into it. Let it happen for my perverse need to see such things, show.
I can't even pretend to have dignity about Elena + Damon anymore. As Marta said: "She straddled him on a bed while pointing a phallic object at him, and then they plotted a murder together." The relationships in my life have NO MEANING. :( :( :(
This seems to be an unpopular opinion, but I <<<<<<<<33333333 Elena's "you told me to kill him, so I did." It's not about shifting blame; she knows full well that this is her fault. But Damon is supposed to be the guy who FIXES everything, dammit. Yet, he can't fix this, and she kind of hates him for it. Which works, because he'll let her hate him for anything.
Shippers are having a field day over everything, no doubt. I think it's important to note that Stefan's gross behaviour re: Elena right now is about equally as bad as Damon's back in S2 (the only real difference being that Damon's controlling and objectifying wasn't rooted in a Madonna/whore complex). Both dudes are guilty of impinging on Elena's agency and... generally being the worst. And the reason that Damon is on the whole faring better right now is because he already went through his emo period of fucking everything up and eating crow. Like, twice. (One of those periods consisted of waiting for 145 years to save Katherine, obvs.) At this point, Damon has learned the fucking hard way to rid himself of his Romantic Hero delusions. Stefan, not so much. He still can't conceive of any relationship with Elena in which he is not her "saviour". Hence... this.
I've definitely missed some points, but such is life.

+ btw, this post on Tumblr is responsible for the cut text of this one. Look at it and decease from LOL.

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I am supposed to be writing a report on a 600-page historical novel that I mostly skimmed! I am not doing that! I am writing this, because this post is 7000x more interesting.

The irony of "I lost control" is that she was in control every second. She didn't lose control of her actions; she lost control of her emotions. (LOL, sounds like someone else we know, am I right or am I right.) And because we all have to cling to ways of not dealing, she attempts to explain it as "losing herself", as though it wasn't all her the entire time. Stunning, tbh.

I am so intrigued to see how Elena's own view of self develops. is it too much to hope that we will get a S/E convo where he is like "this is not you!" and she is like, "yes, yes it is" and Stefan faints and then falls off a rooftop? IDK, sometimes my expectations can be too high.

Okay, real talk. Startin' to get real tired of fandom's deal about Elena's depression.

This is driving me so bonkers, so much so that I have had to not read some forums and like, do legitimate work. (The horror. THE HORROR). You know that if Elena was acting all carefree and unperturbed, the same people would be calling foul at her for not being compassionate or whater. Girl can't win (except at The Hot Vampire Game).

Bonnie/Shane. I'm into it. Let it happen for my perverse need to see such things, show.

Me too. I had a History of the Occult teacher in college. He was bald and just constantly name-dropped himself as the *third* biggest expert of Alchemy in the world. (My forever question: THERE ARE THREE?!) This version is already so much better.

This seems to be an unpopular opinion, but I <<<<<<<<33333333 Elena's "you told me to kill him, so I did." It's not about shifting blame; she knows full well that this is her fault.

I liked this moment too, and agree that she's not really blaming Damon here, or at least not in a way that will extend past that scene. I also kind of read it as Elena having a "the fuck is my life" moment. Previously, Human!Elena would have deliberated for days and days and days about whether or not this OBVIOUS THREAT should be killed. Now, Damon was like "kill him!" and SHE DID. With no soul-searching, kind of at all, until it was too late.

And the reason that Damon is on the whole faring better right now is because he already went through his emo period of fucking everything up and eating crow.

You're totally right. Damon has matured a bit--in like tiny tiny tiny babysteps, and sometimes the baby is still looking the wrong way and stuff--but circumstances has made him face some hard truths and then come out the other side. Stefan has been allowed the privilege of maintaining his illusions and still being the one everyone chooses. If this show doesn't fuck with that, I will be severely disappointed.

ALSO, CONGRATS ON WINNING AT SCHOOL.

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Thank you for thinking my post is interesting! ;P Best of luck with the report.

is it too much to hope that we will get a S/E convo where he is like "this is not you!" and she is like, "yes, yes it is" and Stefan faints and then falls off a rooftop?
LET THIS HAPPEN, SHOW (falling off a rooftop and everything).

You know that if Elena was acting all carefree and unperturbed, the same people would be calling foul at her for not being compassionate or whater.
Seriously. I deeply appreciate the behavior-policing from every corner.

I had a History of the Occult teacher in college. He was bald and just constantly name-dropped himself as the *third* biggest expert of Alchemy in the world.
How dull. My sympathies.

I actually do expect more scapegoating of Damon? Elena's now being terrorized by hallucinations, which means her distrust of both Salvatores will likely continue to happen, naturally. At least for a little while.

Stefan has been allowed the privilege of maintaining his illusions and still being the one everyone chooses. If this show doesn't fuck with that, I will be severely disappointed.
I think we're seeing this happen already? That is, if the cure business is being set up to blow up horribly in his face. Let it happen, show.

AND THANK YOU! I anticipate much more chilling.

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