your stitches are all out but your scars are healing wrong;

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06 | the ship where fandom is DOING IT WRONG

What about me? I love you so much. And I tried to make you go away. I
killed you and it didn't help. And I hate it. I hate that it's so hard,
and that you can hurt me so much. I know everything that you did because
you did it to me. Oh God, I wish that I wished you dead. I don't. I
can't.

I dallied on this "day", but then I figured that in the realm of "fandom IS DOING IT WRONG" ships, there is no formative contender than Buffy/Angel. I mean "formative" in the sense that the Buffyverse was my first fandom and I'd never before seen such incorrect shipping in my life. There are no scars like Buffy fandom scars, &c. &c. Obviously, the wrong shipping (as in, WRONG WRONG WRONG, not wrong!shipping which is in fact what we're here for) surrounds the idea of B/A as a straightforward pure epic starcrossed forever love, when clearly at its best it's pretty deliberately a horror story. I do think the show(s) had a tendency to romanticize the story (... a lot), but in some ways I also think that was a somewhat necessary part of the story -- it's the epitome of that heady, destructive (understatement) first love, the kind you feel like you "can't breathe" without, the kind that scars you for life. And Buffy really is emotionally scarred by Angel -- and all of the bad related to Angel -- for years into her adulthood.

In a word, it's trainwreck syndrome. I don't care for the fluff/schmoop; I don't buy into their pure forever love; I'm not sure they'd even work together in the long-term or are even particularly compatible as people aside from their damage (though I do see the potential in their friendship). But dude, watching this shit growing up, I all but threw myself before the altar of Joss Whedon's sadism.

Also, Buffy/Angelus is the kind of thing that makes one scared to walk around their house, do u feel.

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I wish I could remember the name of that shiny star. I AM SURE IT WAS COSY UP THERE WHY WAS I THROWN OFF OF THE PRETTY ROCK /WOE. Don't give me star-feelings you cruel troll.

Late comments are gifts from Satan.
This pleases me greatly as I am in the process of word-vomiting at you in your latest-before-last (I am making this a thing kk) TVD review/recap/thinky-thoughts-that-are-just-bulletpoints-of-feels. Not that the opposite would have refrained me from posting because I am selfish and will force my emoting down your throat always. BUT. I keep getting interupted by the devil that is Marta's new baby AND UGH MULTITASTING WHAT IS IT.

Thank you for the roses, I am touched.